November 4th, 2009

Hair.

Posted by Destiny at 04:28 AM on November 4, 2009.

By Chris Rock's "Good Hair", and Tyra's segment on it, "What is Good Hair?"

So in the black community, "good hair" is seriously a crazy issue.

Having not grown up around many black people, I wasn't exposed to relaxers early on, or even hot tools. However this didn't mean that I was not ridiculed. Having grown up in a predominantly white environment, my multi-cultural background gave way to white culture, which often has no idea what to think of me, and additionally, my seemingly eccentric hair.

As a child, my mother did the best she could, keeping my hair in braids and and ponytails. My hair has always been incredibly long for a "black girl", due primarily to my Filipina, Spanish, and Tlingit heritage. However recently... I've become addicted to hair extensions, due largely in part to seeing white people use them. Funny, huh? Cause most hair pieces I've ever heard of have been used by African Americans.

Now I refuse to call them weaves - those are traditionally sewn or glued into the hair. The types I use are clip in - no damage done to the hair, you just clip in the wefts and take them out at the end of the day. It dramatically changes my look, and for some funny reason, I feel more attractive and desirable with these hair pieces in. It's why I think I got the job at Hooters, actually.

This is old:

I feel like in order to be wanted, I must be straightened and styled to be accepted. Isn't that interesting? The one awful thing about hair extensions... or a woman's weave... are those times when you're trying to be intimate. Flashbacks to Aaron trying to run his fingers through my hair as I went down on him. Dodging bullets I was... you can only imagine.

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November 2nd, 2009

start anew

Posted by juzer at 11:16 AM on November 2, 2009.

+Monday, November 2, 2009
Life is good. M tried to tell me that he loves me and thinks I'm beautiful. If this is true -why can't I see it myself? Has my self-image become so distorted I can no longer tell? Anyway, M has a busy week so I'll do my best to leave him alone and get my stuff done. I decided that I won't pay him a visit over Thanksgiving b/c I need to sort out some things at home. I also hope that in doing so I'll get other assignments done, etc.

I don't think that I have been getting enough sleep. I don't know how it happened but I kind of feel like the leader in two of my groups -_- I hope someone else steps up b/c I'm lazy as fuk. I haven't felt like I wanted to do things in a while -lately. I'm reaching the level of exhaustion when you just stop caring. I want to hide from the world and lie under my blanket. I cried very briefly last night b/c I feel like I'm trying so hard to do well this final semester and I understood that my efforts could come tumbling down if I did poorly in one class. That sounds stupid, I know. I'm also going to get my period soon >_> I slept at 1am.

+ Tuesday, November 3, 2009 (a whole lotta blahhh)
The sleep definitely made me feel better, but I was also more exhausted from it (it's one of those times when you sleep more and that makes you tired). I started working again -YAY! I really felt like I did my best to be productive today. I completed the work that needed to be accomplished at work. I also finished my mkt hw (2 assignments -due Fri), fin hw (due Thurs), and bus hw (due Thurs) for this week. I submitted a work request for my suite's back screen door. I called Bursar's office to figure if I could get my hold remove, they informed me that I could not so I left a message at the financial aid office and they e-mailed me a website where my mother had to sign a MPN. I made sure that was done and will call in like a few days to figure out if there's any progress (hold on my account blocks academic records from sending my transcript out). I also applied for a few more jobs. I only have one interview for like printing sales xD next Tuesday. Although I'm not entirely sure if that's something I would even want to do -I'll still take the interview seriously even if I do or do not get it -it's great practice and I am rusty. I also attended the FIN. ASSOC. meeting today and I really want to go to the NY trip that's on the 17th. I e-mailed my teachers to express my interest and to find out if there's anything important due for that day. I found out that one of my fin. professors moved up presentations, which means that instead of presenting next Thursday, I'll be presenting on Tuesday and we'll have an exam on Thursday. The exam makes me nervous because today he realized that most of the class does not bother to read the WSJ and therefore, he might purposely test us on certain things we should know from the WSJ. So it's currently 11:22pm and I'm working on completing the last question to my FB case. I'm going to go to sleep before 12 and get up by like 6am to start up again.

I want to make sure I do my part for entr fin (we're meeting tomorrow at 9:30pm) and finish my hw, I want to complete my mkt part II assignment, apply to several jobs (directly through websites, contacts?, ask professors?) and read the WSJ just in case he does test us on current events I want to feel satisfied knowing that I at least read and study for fin. also read the manual more in-depth so I can actually contribute to the decision-making process.

Later on, I would like to take notes and write paper on COM, finish other two sections & presentation for MKT, study for FIN (well it's coming up), read for BUS?, and study for Entr. Fin.

This week's agenda (tentative):
- Wed - complete entr fin group case write-up, and finish my hw. Make a list of companies to apply directly to. Read 10WSJ.
- Thurs - read 20WSJ (might go to @R). Read manual. Get job application materials ready.
- Fri - read 10 WSJ. Finish reading manual. Apply to desired positions.
- Sat - finish up mkt pt 2 (celebrate Lisa's 21 bday)
- Sun - complete and practice presentation for Tuesday

Next week: (Hopefully to study for FIN exam but might have to meet for second group case write-up and for other fin class)
- Fin Presentation & Memo due (Nov. 10)
- ETS Exam (Nov. 11)
- Fin 2nd Exam (Nov. 12)
- Mkt Pt 2 Assignment (due Nov. 13)
Head home over the weekend (Nov. 14-15) =D!

+ Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Ended up sleeping till 8:15am-ish. Finished FB case, cleared up the whole transcript mess, and felt unmotivated to do more. I need to finish my entr fin group write-up and hw tonight. I want to take a nap right now :/

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October 30th, 2009

I'M TRAINING TO SERVE!!!

Posted by Destiny at 03:21 AM on October 30, 2009.

Next week. I am so fucking excited.

Finally, after a year of bullshit at the lob, I get down to the nitty gritty at Hooters.

... <3 YAYYYYYY

PS HALLOWEEN WEEKEND WILL BE EPIC! <3

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October 28th, 2009

Blackbook.

Posted by Destiny at 05:13 AM on October 28, 2009.

This entry contains sexually explicit information that can be offensive to some people.

Please don't read it if you can't handle it.

I'm not big on foreplay. I like it hard and rough. And I like to feel dominated. I like names, slapping, biting, massaging, and hair pulling. And moaning is my favorite

Christopher Allard aka Chris: lost my virginity to him. Record - 7 times, one day. Pros: Amazing passion, fast, hard, and agile - able to recover quickly. Cons: Small. Not many other complaints... he just knew what to do with me after so long.
Edoardo Quevedo aka Ed: the first guy I kissed. Completely friends with benefits relationship. Have known him the longest out of all my sexual partners, 2006. Pros: He's huge. He likes to experiment, down for different places. Cons: He's too into foreplay. Has to get a BJ before we hook up.
Johnathan Gilbreth aka John: Two times. He couldn't get it up all the way both times. Pros: Decent foreplay. Cons: LIMP. Not that big. Close friend of Chris'. Ugh.
Brian Hanesana: dependable, sort of used him to get over Chris. Pros: Experienced, large, and kinky. Cons: Uncircumcised. Lasted wayyy too long, sore and swollen many times after. Would sweat a lot after our hour and a half long sessions. Ridiculous.
Raymond Bonander aka Ray: Physically very attractive to me (except his legs), had the softest hair I've ever touched, and had a gentle caress... yeee. Pros: He played seduction well, knows exactly what positions to do with me, foreplay wasn't extensive. Cons: Not as sexually deviant, sexual appetite far lower than mine, not very large, didn't last for a long time.
Brandon Clark - one nighter: Pros: He was massive. He lifted me up like I was nothing. Cons: He has a gf hahaha. And I wasn't that physically attracted to him, although everyone else was.
Aaron Kunst aka Ginger: ... the best sex I've ever had. Pros: He's well endowed. He's talented, knows angles, knows depth range, knows EFFECTIVE foreplay tricks, lasts a long time. Cons: Uncircumcised, always wants a blow job, he's arrogant and will tease til the point of frustration.
Rhett Crockett - one nighter: regret, has a gf, skank. Pro: Large. Cons: Everything else. Ugliest guy I've hooked up with. It's his height that got me.
Thibault Palomares aka T-Bo: Marine. That should sum it up. Pros: Huge, strong. Cons: Slut.
Frank Patton - one nighter: Pros: Sweetheart. Cons: Limp.
Max Roemer: so far, just once. Pros: Buffest guy I've hooked up with. Sensitive, sweet, caring. Cons: Seems kinda lazy in the sac. Decent sized.