I got my ears pierced today. :D After a terrible morning and an iffy ....noon, I realized I gained some weight and then ate a hamburger.



Well, isn't it exciting.

I'm in a state of panic. None of my teachers have written me a recommendation for the program which is due TOMORROW.... oh shit....I hate procrastination.

I now remind myself to NEVER procrastinate.

As I go online and not do my work.

Ah, life.

I've erased waterga so many times. It's funny when I look back at the stuff I wrote using the waybackmachine.

7/14/04

The moment where orchestra swells and trumpet fanfare no longer foreshadow my welcome seems to be creeping upon me at an unexpected speed. The question that remains after all the streamers and confetti have been put away still picks on my mind incessantly. It now stops being something simple to shelf away but morphs into a rapidly swelling wad of fallen hopes.

It may be the easy solution to question myself with ‘what did you expect’ and wallow with glares at people idiotic enough to console me. It may even be easier to just pass off such thoughts as trivial in the long run. But maybe it’s my turn to feel.
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7/30/04

Karen and I went to the mall despite the fact that Michael last-minute canceled. We went to Famous Barr and tried to get me a free makover. This gorgeous Orlando Bloom (except better) lookalike tried to help me (ok, he was gay… *Shobs*) and he was smearing lip gloss onto his hand to show me (the beginner, as said by Karen) how to start and how many layers and shades of eyeshadow to put on. I think he might’ve given me one except this Japanese middle-aged woman came in and started saying how a makeover is tied to buying 2 products. No thanks.

Ate at California Pizza Kitchen and then went back to her house to put more make-up on me while I helped her study for government. Haha. Free.
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Oh jeez. 2003.

It was... Sunday, June 22, 2003
I finished my Harry Potter book, and now my neck hurts like shit. I guess I shouldn't have read it in one day, but it only took like 5 hours. Unfortunatley, those five hours consisted of me bending my head down. I should've read on the bed instead of on the floor watching TV, huh. Anyway, I was going to Borders today to read Chobits and Card Captor Sakura, but something went wrong while getting my Mom's Allegra prescription at Walgreens, so we had to go home and do all this stupid shit. Argh!!! Bad day. And plus, the Harry Potter book had no H/H, which is what I used to ship before I lost interest. Gah.

Pang is still complaining even at 12:35 PM
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*covers eyes*

But wow. I forgot I read that book in 5 hours. But I DO remember the neck pains I had for three weeks...

Over 12/11/03
[School] - Kaolla @ 04:06:51 Everything's been pretty weird lately. I was at the debate tournament, which I did better than I thought I did in and made some new friends, I guess?

I like it, if only more of my real friends did it. For debate, I got straight D's in the beginning, but eventually I got A's and 2 B's. Yeah! I got better!
(what am I talking about?!)
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10.10.03
Gah
[Daily] - Kaolla @ 21:31:43 So basically I've been harassed on the net and now everyone thinks I'm fragile and will get killed. Someone told the police, blah blah blah, so now everything's a mess and I don't know when will be the next time I get on the net..
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Oh yeah. That. Man. That was... -_-''

Interesting though:
Your Brain Usage Profile

(Everything's Dead Now)

This is... almost disturbing. But maybe all these changes are for the better, eh? :-/

I got into the QuestScholars semi-finalists thing!

AH!

It's this program at Stanford. Uber-selective, so I'm not getting in, but it's still nice that my work paid off, in a way.

Yay. Let me revel for a moment.

Then think about the cost of getting to the interview.

But that's life.

Yay!

Thankies to Liesl, Rellie, Ally, Chums, Ning, Cindy, etc. for helping me w/the app.

Oh, and I got an email from NOCCA:

Dear Yue,

I recently received your application for the NOCCA summer creative writing from the Student Services department. At the moment the only openings we have available are for screenwriting, a very challenging and fun course. Given the strength of your application, I'd also like to discuss the possiblity of your auditioning for the regular program.

Please let me know if either of these options seem viable for you.


Uh... screenwriting?
If she means 'regular program' as in 'no classes at Franklin..'... no thanks.

Yes, I am. I can't believe myself. Really.

Let me mull over this by myself.

On the other hand, I'm thinking about relocating to lj.

What do you say? Chums, I do think your new lj name is pretty cool. Time to move? I like the friends groups.

Oh, and about the entries that seem to be missing. Forget it. I don't want to mention it. It's not like it's gone and over, but I just don't want to talk about it anymore. It's become weird.

1. Make new layout for tabulas.
2. Seriously.
3. Get over it. Whatever it is.
4. Close my xanga.
5. Cheer up.
6. Stop taking things so personally, because
7. I need to realize that I'm not that special and
8. Neither are you.
9. Study.

Spanish test today was a complete abomination. But, I do think that I passed. Which is really saying something.

So, I realized that I do sound pretty damn depressing a few of my entries, but that's just the way it is. Things this year ARE worse than they were last year, but getting it out somehow is better than doing nothing about it.

I am also an easily influenced coward. Whee. I see that every single day, but everytime it gets blown up above my head, I cringe.

Good luck to everyone; it truly is the shittiest time of the year.