I usually post my political rants at Waterga but seriously. This is just..

The main attack on Kerry seems to be that he changed his mind about the war on Iraq.

Quite frankly, a lot of people have.

Quite frankly, it was a justified change of mind.

Is it better to stick on the side of a situation where you are WRONG?

The US enjoys people who admit to their mistakes. Except rednecks and hicks, because they are a mistake anyway. You can't deny your own existence, and hicks wouldn't even know what that meant.

Good day today. Although I am incredibly screwed homework-wise. Left my practice test with someone at SCHOOL. Damnit.

A life lesson learned:
Sometimes changing your opinion is shit. What you thought something/someone was in the beginning is exactly how they are at the end, despite any turns you may have taken in your opinion of whatever it is.

A completely worthless day at school.

How is that I am making all A's in every single fucking hard gifted whatever class and making a C in stupid Spanish!? She quizzes us EVERY SINGLE day before class starts with random english>spanish questions. One tiny error? Oops, you get demoted a letter grade lower.

I am fucking FAILING them.

And then I started thinking about the friends that I made here, and everything that was happening back in Clayton.

Did I really make the right choices? I think I'll just drift along for now.

What I'd really like to do is just get off the net. For good. At least until I can raise my spanish grades and the PSATs are over. Am I really the ONLY person studying for them?!

I also realized studying doesn't help at all in terms of tests. I do know it all. I study the wrong things just like how I listen and filter out the wrong things in class. Waste of time.

I have homework piled up. Homework. The saving point of my grade. How pathetic. I want to stab something.

And those pointless posts about my so-called love life. Yeah. Let's just concentrate on not feeling like shit again.

Is it such a bad thing to get annoyed so easily. People see someone that they think is perfection. This person is humble, serious, 'friendly', nice...

It's not my business. But it makes me laugh how gullible people are.

I like the shadows. If no one can see what you're thinking, then your point can be made when you truly want it to be.

And no, I'm not talking about just the net anymore.

PSAT. Tomorrow. Ach. While I am not a junior and won't be feeling the full brunt of my... failures, I still needlessly (or maybe not) panic.

Still failing spanish. We didn't do anything today, so my grade wasn't raised, besides my homework grade. This is just ridiculous. Also took the Bio midterm, I think if luck is not against me, I could've made an A on her impossible test.

I'm starting to get into debate stuff again. But about the whole homecoming thing... yeah... I might go to dinner with a few friends before and just go and hang out, I guess. Nothing really changes. Moving hasn't made me any more outgoing, bubbly, contagious, social, etc. Kinda funny how I was finally starting to get a life the latter half of last year and ... well... nothing now, basically. I think I'm actually starting to hate that guy I talked about in earlier entries. -_-'' Typical of Yue. But basically what I've been realizing in the midst of nearly falling asleep due to my err- lack of sleep is that I like to delude myself into thinking that something could be done about my missing chunk of... heart? I get worried sometimes. I really don't know how to approach these things...and all my 'real-life' friends know that it's kinda like... one of those things that I start acting more normal ... whatever. Or maybe I'm misreading my signals? If that's the case I am truly a lost social creature.

These past couple of weeks... I guess I've finally made some friends that I feel comfortable... at least somewhat... around. This is enough to last me through the next two years, but I just miss everyone, despite their faults.

What I mean is, I try to remain ubiased about some things, but is it really 'talking bad' about someone by just stating their faults?

For instance, state my faults. No, really. Do so. I'll start.

1) I'm too timid.
2) I don't ask enough questions.
3) I'm too defensive.
4) No matter how much I study, I have no confidence and I don't get any better. Even after wasting all my nights studying. I get a B.

*plunges into PSAT*

The only thing worse than people with no talent is people who praise those with no talent. And the only thing worse than that? People who realize that the ones whom they shower their praises onto are incompetent fools but they do it anyway just for the attention and 'love'.

Isn't that what makes the world go round.

I bought the Keane CD and Star Ocean 3 this weekend, among other things, such as my homecoming dress and two SAT study books.

By the way, I am going to homecoming. No date. But I'm going with a few friends to dinner first and then to the dance, and then for coffee or something. Which may seem exciting at first, but really just gives the impression of paramount boredom when I really think about it.

As far as net life goes.. a few things happened this weekend that I'm a bit angry about, and it really reinforces the idea that once someone achieves any kind of status regardless of their level of actual talent, everyone bows down and defends them.

And when it's all over the same people that I started out with are the people that I end up with, and I'd really just like to get away from it all.

Ironic: I haven't cried about moving in such a long time, but at the mall yesterday, I just couldn't stop thinking about this summer... and how the last day I spent in St. Louis was at the mall with a few friends and how weird I left things with some of them... It's another sort of... well.. whatever.

It also looks like I won't be able to visit for Thanksgiving, and I have a suspicion that part of the reason my parents bought me this video game is to make up for it.

But I'd rather go.

There is a speech & debate tournament next weekend, which is also the same day as homecoming, which means that if I end up placing (ha) I won't be able to go to the awards ceremony.

Anyway, doing DI and Extemp there. It's weird... today the teacher said:

"Ok guys, we're gonna put up this practice schedule for next week. Let's work hard and hopefully we'll sweep."

That's not the attitude that we have at Clayton... I mean... people here just EXPECT to sweep. Which makes ME feel like shit, because I don't see how I'm going to be of any use if I don't debate. Eugh.

By the way... Cardinals going to the World Series! And yes, the Red Sox are also.. red. But whatever. At least we don't have a pitcher that said "The Yankees are my daddies." Don't ask me how I know this.

Now me being from St. Louis actually means something. Not that I'll tell anyone in this pit. Heh.

There was more. Oh yes.. well... things are really picking up the pace here.. things are getting better. But at the same time.. I retook my stupid test on logarithms and got a fucking B ... eugh.

Yeah, anyway... yesterday during Spanish I had to work with these idiot guys; needless to say, no work was done, they were too busy recounting shows that they loved during their childhood. And I realized that yes, even the idiots that can get into this school ARE smart. They remember EVERY FUCKING LINE from those shows, but get terrible grades. What is wrong with youth these days. However, they did write this 'love letter' from this freshman to this girl in our grade in the class. It's so obvious he likes her... and I think the best line was..

"..let's become fluent together and run away to Spain."

They didn't give it to her because it was 'too mean'. Wow. I can't believe they have morals. Then again, she is an admant Bush-lover who actually is well-read in terms of politics. Ah, I can stand her, she helps me with Spanish. But..hehe...

Homecoming tickets went on sale today...selling them is boring. Arugh.. the process is so tedious ... why do they make you put their NAMES on everything?! *shakes head* Another loong week. Monday is Nerd Day of spirit week.


Ann Coulter, that stupid woman, got PIED. HAHA.
Source
She is such an idiot. Really. I know there are smart Republicans out there who CAN make a point without saying "This is why they suck. And we obviously don't. Duh.". Yes. No.. really.. convince me.
Ah, I wish I had a picture.

I couldn't believe that USA Today actually had standards and fired her. One small victory for the media, one big step in the mass bitch-slap genocide of idiots.